Simple Ruminations
Guam
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Quick Newsflash
Friday, May 6, 2011
Good Friday ---> Loving Hut
Good Friday
I woke up. I heard the rain pattering outside. There was no hint of the sun breaking through the clouds today. Another depressing day, I was in no mood to teach children. But nevertheless the doorbell will ring in an hour or so. As I said "Good Morning" to the director, and coworker - there was an unusual tension, perhaps they are just extra serious, and somber because of Good Friday, because they are seriously thinking about how 2000 years ago, Christ died on the cross. I thought maybe I should take this day more seriously.
Everyone is wearing black, even the children. The Christian parents dressed their children in black. The activities for the day revolved around Good Friday. We had communion, the craft was a crown of thorns with toothpicks. I thought the craft was too serious.
As the day wound to an end. My coworker and director spoke in the car for maybe two hours. I can only imagine what is going on. What they are discussing, what they are unhappy about considering each other. I tell myself it doesn't matter, it doesn't involve me. But their tension changes the environment, changes the feeling at the school, I did not want it to last any longer. I was curious.
Six o' clock. Time to go to church for the Good Friday service. I told my coworker I did not want to go. She told me to go. Part of me really disliked this, I thought I can do what I want. But I went to church. I tried to pray. I felt far from God, empty words come out of my mouth. After church, I hurried home. I was glad there are wonderful people at church whom noticed my unusual demeanor.
I went for a run at 11:oo PM. At the Hangang I ran past what seems to be a battalion of soldiers marching. How strange they marched on public grounds. It sent uneasy feelings given the situation between North and South Korea right now. The soldiers' eyes, each one of them stared at me. I am about their age, but such different circumstances. I ran freely, while they marched with their heavy packs. Their eyes made me run past them faster and faster.
Suddenly "Lord Have Mercy" played on my Ipod, or suddenly I noticed the lyrics.
"Jesus I forgotten the words that you have spoken, promises that burn within my heart have now grown dim. With a doubting heart I followed the path of earthly wisdom, forgive me for my unbelief, renew the fire again. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me. I have built an altar, I worship the things of man, I have taken journey's that have drawn me far from you, now I am returning to your mercies ever flowing, part of my transgressions helped me to love you again. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me. I have longed to know you, and all the tender mercies, like a river of forgiveness ever flowing without end. So I bound my heart for you, in the goodness of your presence, your grace forever shining, like a beacon in the night. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy on me, Lord have mercy on me. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on me."
This was my prayer. Lord have mercy on me. During prayers at church, I prayed and tried to remember all the times that God was good to me. But it had no effect. Thinking about the past did not affect me. Tonight, after this song, after listening to it countless times, God was telling me, " I am the Way the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except for me. (John 14:6)
Loving Hut Restaurant
Never has a meal made me feel more depressed. Yesterday, my family ( director's family, myself and a coworker) stumbled into a vegan restaurant. As I walked up the well-lit stairs, I felt strange.
The food looked mediocre, and tasted tolerable. The problem with the restaurant was not the food, but the SUPREME MASTER TV that was playing the whole time. A series of images and numbers designed to scare and manipulate. A series of images and numbers detailing the pain the world has suffered due to wars, to natural disasters, and other causes of death. The solution as advertised by SUPREME MASTER TV is to follow Ching Hai, a spiritual leader who claims that, (in her own words) 1. Be Green, 2. Be Veg, and 3. Be Love will solve all the world's problems, and will rid the world of natural disasters. I do not disagree that being green and vegan may be beneficial, but certainly will not solve all the world's conflicts. I left dinner and unhappy and depressed.
Curious, as soon as I arrived home I searched for Ching Hai. To her credit, she has ostentatiously donated her wealth from her clothing line, jewelry line, restaurant line, to many charities. Although many of the donations, the charities claim never arrived. "How can anyone believe this?" How can anyone be in such a stupor?
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I said the same thing to the Christianity, only a few years ago. The grievances of the Christian church are countless. Christians are equally guilty of spiritual and religious stupor.
But having walked to this point with Christ, and as my conviction grows; I hope that I never fall into spiritual or religious stupor. And only follow how Jesus lived his life, and the Truth.
Proverbs 3:21
My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight; they will be life for you, an ornament to grace your neck.
Friday, April 22, 2011
grocery shopping
I have walked down countless grocery store aisles. A Hy-vee in Iowa is the same as a Pricechopper in Vermont and a Safeway in Maryland. I have walked down the aisles of far too many Super Walmarts. Grocery shopping in the United States is a mundane task. Food is advertised by its cardboard packaging. In Korea when I first ventured into Lottemart, I was delighted. There were a new variety of vegetables, fruit, seafood, and meat. But try actually shopping there, and you can only hear the din of the grocery store workers shouting advertisements. Even though I could not understand what they were screaming, the noise from their lips only gave me a headache. This is not a criticism of individual workers, but the fact that their job requires for them to scream ads about squid, beef, and fish. Shopping at Lottemart makes me miss the phony soft music of grocery stores in the US.
A few weeks ago, I walked through a street market in Incheon. Instead of fake cardboard advertisements, fresh seafood, beef, pork, fruit, vegetables advertised itself. You didn’t see a picture of perfect food, but saw real food. Beef was not packaged into nice plastic packages, oranges were not perfect spheres, fish was not sold in fillets, and dried goods were not packaged with a enlarged picture to show the texture. The aroma, a mixture of meat, seafood, fruit and vegetables, and a small bakery, was surprisingly nice. The experience was real. All five senses were engaged in this grocery shopping experience. You can see and smell the ripeness of a fruit, not the letters R-I-P-E or the Korean equivalent. You can see that the fish is fresh, because they kill it in front of you, not because it says GUARANTEED FRESH TASTE on a cardboard box.
As I was walking through this market with a friend, suddenly we were stopped. My friend taught the children of one of the vendors, and spontaneously we were invited for coffee, and Korean melon. At once I felt the friendliness of this family, and the fruit they were selling is not just fruit anymore, but the labor of this family. And happily we walk away with a bag of fruit, after coffee and a little bit of catching up.
Friday, April 1, 2011
*****
I love Paris Baguette because their cakes are delicious. I love 떡 복 이, I find myself craving this stuff more and more. I love BBQ Chicken, or any of the other chicken joints which are ubiquitous in Korea, for 15,000 Won, I can get a whole chicken, breaded and fried to perfection.
More later!!!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
March 12, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Dajeon, China, Korea
Comparing China and Korea, now both developed nations, I truly enjoy my time in Korea more. As of now, I have spent more time in Korea than China, after I moved away from China when I was five years old. But each time, I have went back to China, I see chaos. As people board the bus, the subway, the train, I simply see chaos. Arguably China has more people at those places, but many times in the Seoul subway system, or bus system there I believe is a similar density of people at all needing to board a bus or subway. In China, there is only a hectic rush and push and shove into the bus. But here in Korea, there also is a rush, but without the hectic rush. No one is pushing, no one is yelling, no one is being sandwiched between two people.
In Dajeon, the seminar was at a small church. At the seminar, I was told it was a gathering of 12 small churches. They were gathered to learn about Christian education from my director. Yesterday, I observed two important things. The first being the passion, the director here has for Christian education. During the seminar, I really saw in her face, her passion and her willingness to sacrifice for this mission. Although, to be honest, the mere amount of stuff that needs to be done everyday is not the best for her family. I respect her passion and sacrifices nonetheless. And second observation occurred over the past month here. We hear a lot about the large super mega duper churches in Korea. But while attending a small church, and seeing many more small churches, I believe the heart of Christianity here in Korea are in these churches. To see so many people gathered yesterday, passionate about bringing change in their own churches, and really changing the community around them was so encouraging. These pastors cannot possibly earn much money, or any at that, but it is a life of faith for them.